Tuesday, May 30, 2006

The Day After Tomorrow And Sunday

I panic too easily. Getting ideas logged in my brain till I begin to believe them as fact.

I tell myself multiple times that with all the packing and vet appointments and money and moving and unpacking and arranging and decorating and busy-ness and city life and excitement I will not have too much time to think about it.... But still sometimes I see a pathetic vision of myself bursting into tears in a lonely room. I will try real hard not to. After all, I am ecstatic. =D Getting confused is hard in the midst of ecstasy.

Either way, take this poem by Yeats. (Yes, I'm quoting Yeats. Now, don't you feel like you're friends with Sylvia Plath? Don't worry, no children or suicide in my future.) It's based off a sonnet of the same name by Pierre de Ronsard, but his is kinda hard to understand, so we're going with Yeats. It's called "When You Are Old":

"When you are old and grey and full of sleep,
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;

How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true,
But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face;

And bending down beside the glowing bars,
Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And hid his face amid a crowd of stars."

1) I hope this is not me.
2) ::sigh:: I wish I could write like that.

Monday, May 29, 2006

If My Life Was A MasterCard Commercial...

This is what our senior class trip on Friday would've looked like:


Group-rate ticket to Cedar Point: $10

Smokehouse hamburger at Johnny Rocket's and Dippin' Dots ice cream: $11.50

Hearing the Brazilian exhange student singing, "It feels so good just to be alive! This is the start of something new!" whilst on the Iron Dragon, seeing a huge fat tall black guy dancing animatedly to Love Shack, and meeting your future husband whilst in line for the Raptor: priceless


Oh, the queso. Sorry, I couldn't resist. =D

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Quote of the Day!

Finally, I have a Quote of the Day again!

This one's from Crystal:

"Okay, we like mullets, backwards or forwards."

=D

Update!

It feels like I just got up. Not because I'm tired or anything. It just seems like I haven't been up very long, as if not much of the day has passed...

Missed always-boring study hall 1 and a sub in sculpture.

Breezed half-mindedly through a psych test, read in study hall 2 but didn't do a very good job of paying attention.

English made my brain numb, I don't remember much of lunch other than the fact that I got a no-bake cookie from Devon the Californian (yay! she is nice) and study hall 3 was spent listening to one song from Mae's third CD over and over again on repeat.

During photography I bought ice cream ("what do you eat in class? chips?! hahaha!"), reiterated my Kyle-is-boring stance, and introduced Black Jack gum to Kelly and Senior Scott Thomas, neither of whom appreciated my sharing tactics.

Study hall 4: more reading and more concentrating, then a bus ride home involving listening to Maria list the first 11 things she will do when she gets home to Brasil.

One piece of chocolate junior cake (Crystal! there was a chocolate junior cake on sale for two bucks!) and two glasses of orange juice later (why am I always the one to drain the carton? does no one else recognize the citrus-y goodness of this drink?), here I am. . .

. . .with utterly nothing else to say.

Oh, except that I saved The Skank from Andy today. =)

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Hear Ye, Hear Ye

Let it be known that I pretty much adore this kid Aaron in Okinawa.

I love the emo-ness.

And he makes me smile. =P

Bad, BAD Day

Today was terrible.

Andy made me feel a little bit better by being nice and hugging me and kissing my hand. He said the cutest/cheesiest/adorable-est thing: "Angela, I wish you weren't sad, it makes me sad. You should be happy, it's exciting when you're happy, it makes me feel good." Or something like that. I was like, Hmm, I think I've heard that before.... =P Still, it was sweet coming from him.

=( Still sad. But, I had cool makeup today. =)

::sigh:: I need some soma. Or maybe just a break.

Monday, May 15, 2006

Ba-Da, Ba-Da Heat

Well I feel like --bleep--.

Taking a sick day.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

I <3 Hot Showers

Mmm, it feels so good to be scrubbed and clean from head to toe! :)

I even washed my hair, mark the calendar.

I've cut off all my hair. . . again! I keep forgetting to tell my sister.
It's almost all my own color of hair now! Exciting. Such has not happened since. . . 6th grade? It's kinda weird. . . and boring. Oh well.

::sigh:: Oh, I wish I wasn't boring! I guess I should be glad I'm not as boring as this chick that came into Subway today. . . but I won't go into a Subway story on you guys, those are generally awful.

That is all for Sunday.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

10:06 PM

I am a Frida Kahlo, opening my wounds because Diego did not come home.

That's "Grean" With An A.

I've decided it's finally time for me to make a decent update around here. And here is what I have to say:

I am eating a potato chip-sour cream sandwich (call me pregnant, I don't care) and the little chip pieces are falling out the bread bottom and getting all over the place.



Till next time...

Angela

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Number #4

PRETTY LITTLE BLACK HANDGUN!
Pretty little black handgun.
You rid the world of the beautiful ones, too early.
In the chest or under the chin,
John and me die hand in hand.

It's Amazing

I am captured.

I am in love.



Is this not the most real thing you have ever seen?

Promise Me One Thing: Part II

So far so good.

Then again, it's only been one day.

But I am hopeful for the rest.

Debate

Why are foreign countries so much more beautiful than America?

Monday, May 01, 2006

Promise Me One Thing:

That the next time he appears, in voice, in print, or in person, you won't go crawling back to him like you have every time before.

Oh, but I can't promise you anything.

Look at that stupid girl
Well, I'm talking about the way she grabs and holds
Look at that stupid girl
The way she talks about someone else
That she don't even know herself
She's the sickest thing in this world
~~~~~
Look at that stupid girl
She bitches 'bout things that she's never seen
Look at that stupid girl
It doesn't matter if she dyes her hair
Or the color of the shoes she wears
She's the worst thing in this world
Well, look at that stupid girl

Being Alone

::sigh::

I am back by myself now, completely and utterly alone.

And it is worse now than it was at the first, because this time around I can remember what the opposite used to feel like.